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Friday, September 19
im twitching with restlessness. after days, weeks, maybe even months of being oh-so-contented with bumming at home, studying, wearing big t-shirts and shorts every day and feigning oblivion to the rest of the world, i'm just about ready to jump back into the swing of things. not for long, i know i know, but a glorious week at least, cut me some slack! then in about 2.5 months from now, the tortured batch of 85s will be set free! whee!
haha..i've been pretty slack after the 3 killer days at the beginning of this week, planning 'life after exams' as i like to put it. ;p and of course... after studying my ass off for biotech this afternoon, it was soo much better than all the rest of my papers! which explains this slight notion of wanting to go out tonight... but i must not. i can not. i will pull through just 1 more short little week. hurmph. well of course, the fact that i have a blocked nose and sound a bit like a toad does make me shy away from the outer world. in just a bit, i shall snuggle up and dwell in the land of dungeons, dragons and goodlooking princes... ;) anyhow, last night i couldnt get to sleep cos of a snuffy nose (plus campylobacter, pseudomonas, agrobacterium tumefaciens all dancing about in my head... "which is what?" arrrgh!!) and then, i started thinking about the strangest things, i swear. i had this overwhelming sense of sadness about jc life- i thought about all the people i'd gotten to know in this 2 years, and realised that i would not talk to most of them after this year. maybe i've already stopped acknowledging their presence as we pass by in the corridors... it's so sad, isn't it? after which, i started thinking about my OG, which of course, i hadn't thought about for a few hundred months, and i remembered we actually continued going out on fridays for quite a while before drifting apart. that was good fun... together with all those stupid class jokes (uzumaki, the oil blotter papers, '5 stars arising'...), days mugging at the airport... dancing for hours at end in the concourse... dramafeste... muddy trainings... obs (turning point!)... i even thought about the school itself, the green chairs, green canteen, green railings, green toilets, green skirts... haha... and i never thought i'll say it, but i'm gonna miss rj a whole lot. i guess everyone gets these pangs of nostalgia, coupled with a strange mix of warm fuzzy memories, disappointment and regret. i do regret not making the most of these 2 years, but i guess the situations just didn't allow it and there's nothing much to be done about it now. i think its been 2 years of changing - i know i know, everybody keeps telling me! (whats up with that? ;) for good or for worse? it works both ways i guess. its too serious a subject to talk about now... will save it for next time... (n of course in between thinking about school and falling asleep, i had a strong impulse to message some people i haven't talked to for ages and say 'HEY! WASSUP?' - thank my sanity i didn't) and now comes the exciting part - as i thought about it last night, i wanted so badly to end off this post in a super raffles way... so... to all rafflesians n the rest of u good-willed people out there... (ha! so cheesy) Auspicium Melioris Aevi
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i feel stupid but its something that comes and goes:i've been changing think its
funny how no one knows:we dont talk about the little things that we do
without:when that whole mad season comes around || and you've been so busy lately that you haven't found the
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