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Sunday, February 22
Its always a hidden kind of security and peace that flushes through me as I take the steps up to church. I smile because I feel home, finally. It would be the combination of spending 6 years of my life in this church, as well as sensing my place as a child in God's kingdom, that fills me with this indescrible silent moment of joy. We often take church as our home for granted, for we spend many weekday nights, and a large part of sunday in church. We become too comfortable in our comfort zone, and forget our real calling to reach beyond the church. As for me, taking a step back has let me value my only day in church more, and has let me come to realise how important God, friends and the concept of church is to me.
Sometimes I feel in place, yet later today I felt displaced. Ironically, as much as the church building remains the same, the faces I see each week change. I'm glad for the many new young faces that smile at me each week, but I mourn for the familiar faces I can't find in the crowd anymore. I long for them, and I know so does God, so much more. I wonder how many of us regularly think back to how God once led us through brokeness and lifted us up of our plight. Though I have kept the sms from a dear brother which urges me to remember the times God was faithful for months, only today I truly remembered, and only today was I truly thankful for His mercy. I was saddened by those who have fallen, because I was also reminded of the times God rescued them, and I heard their former thankful prayers resound in my ears. The rebuke is loud and clear. "So, because you are lukewarm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth." - Revelations 3:16. How many of us realise the severness of this verse? I believe most of us are often lukewarm in our attitude towards God, being sayers but not doers of the faith. It would be difficult to stay "hot" for God continuously, but I believe that God is looking for a heart that ALWAYS longs after Him, in the good and the bad, and a heart that always crowns him as Lord (or tries to at least). Studying Romans has shaped my perspective of God more accurately. Though God is kind and compassionate, He is ultimately a holy God, and thus harsh when dealing with those who do not humble themselves before Him. Looking back to Revelations, spitting is an action taken to eject an object as far away as possible, as if foul tasting and nauseating. That is, how we can come to be to Jesus if we continue acknowledging him with our mouths and not our hearts. Spitting also carries a forceful connotation. Why didn't God say, "I will take you out of my mouth" or "I will remove from my mouth"? I believe that spitting shows His wrath towards and disappointment in his children. Being cast aside from God is the worst thing that man can suffer from spiritually. I'm praying that we will hear the rebuke and come to realise the severness of God's word and the punishment of our lukewarmness. May we hear the urgency of God's call and come back to Him this day.
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